Right now, I am…

Savoring… lots of snacking meals of leftover cheeses, eggnog, nuts, cookies, and fruit.

Worrying… that perhaps I’m eating too much of the above?

Struggling… against the pull to be productive and disciplined while at the same time just wanting to luxuriate in the delicious holiday inertia for forever. Too bad “doing nothing” gets boring so fast….

Discovering… a new writing place! They recently (a year ago?) expanded their space, taking over a vintage clothing shop and transforming the former changing rooms into little cubbies, perfect for holing up for long stretches of time. The music is terrible (abrasive) and the coffee is tepid (though tasty), but the atmosphere is pretty swell. Want to join me? If you’re lucky, you might get the roomy handicap stall.

Signing up… for a publishing workshop with Jane Friedman. (No, the book is not done.)

Missing… Spanish, Puerto Rico, and — I can’t believe I’m saying this — hot weather.

Marveling… that Ghirardelli salted caramel boxed brownies taste exactly like toasted marshmallows! Am I the only one who thinks this?

Thrilling… over my sweet children who pooled their resources and surprised me with an absolutely fantastic chef’s knife. The comfy handle, the smooth rocking motion, the wicked-sharp blade — I am so over-the-moon.

Reeling… from the spontaneous purchase of a much-longed for macbook. This was not the plan. First, I bought a super-cheap Lenovo, but when we realized it was making a death rattle despite being brandnew, we returned it. Then, after much thoughtful and very adult-like deliberation, I finally settled on a better Lenovo — faster, more expensive. But — oh woe! — it was weirdly slow and kept blanking out. After working on it for a bit, my brother declared it defunct. By then my husband was like, Screw it, Jennifer. Just get a real computer.  So now our budget’s in shambles but I don’t really care because Oh my word, this computer is AMAZING. #noregrets

Failing… yet again to convince my husband to go on a run with me, grumble-gr. My sister-in-law, aka my loyal running buddy, broke her elbow (surgery, plates, pins — ouch!) and will be out of commission for a couple months, so now it’s just me out there facing the bone-chilling cold all by my lonesome. 

Appreciating… the meditative nature of solo runs. My thoughts go every which way and, when I return, I feel like I’m resurfacing from a deep fog. I like it.

Gloating… over my hearing test results. My kids always fuss that I’m going deaf, and I feel like I’m always saying What?, so when our pharmacy hosted free hearing tests for a day, I took one. I fully thought the tests would reveal moderate loss, but no — my hearing is excellent. Thus proving that it’s not me — everyone else is mumbling. (Or maybe I’m a lazy listener….?)

Watching… my older son’s snowboarding footage and wondering what sort of crazy person would even consider paying good money for the privilege (torture?) of whizzing down a snow-covered mountain with their feet strapped fast to a slab of wood? And then realizing, oh right — my kids.

Raving… to EVERYONE about Roma. Have you seen it? Everything — the realism, the acting, the cinematography, the intimacy — is utterly pristine and exquisite.

Finishing up…  reading Ender’s Game to the younger two kids, season five of The Great British Baking Show (and laughing at how the new hosts tear up all the time!), The Wife.

Assembling… a puzzle, meals from leftovers, mince tarts.

This same time, years previous: 2017 book list, 2016 garden stats and notes, 2015 book list, 2014 book list, remembering Guatemala, hot buttered rolls, chopped locks, one step above lazy.

Here you go, just in time for the dark winter months…

*Where the Past Begins, by Amy Tan. Excessively wordy and dry. I skimmed a lot, especially towards the end. Also: what’s up with the huge paragraphs? They’re not easy to read or fun to look at, so why?

*The Ninth Hour, by Alice McDermott. Pristine writing. Slow, meandering story. Pretty good.

*Little Fires Everywhere, by Celeste Ng. Interesting and kind of fun, but the plot flaws and underdeveloped/inconsistant characters bugged me.

*The Maytrees, by Annie Dillard. So bewilderingly dense that I felt, at times, like I wasn’t even reading English. Summary: one-third I didn’t understand, one-third I sort of understood, and one-third connected on a deep, deep level. Weird, huh?

*The Great Starvation Experiment: The Heroic Men Who Starved So That Millions Could Live, by Todd Tucker. Interesting and informative. Also, it made me hungry.

*The School of Essential Ingredients, by Erica Bauermeister. Food porn — over-the-top and light — but fun.

*The Writing Life, by Annie Dillard. Excellent, though I didn’t get all the plane stunt stuff.

*Educated, by Tara Westover. AMAZING. I devoured it in two days, mostly while sitting on the patio of our little vacation house in Vieques [dreamy pause], and then the three younger kids read it, too (though not while we were on vacation — we’re not that efficient). Nuanced, gracious, and raw, it’s perhaps the best memoir I’ve read, ever.

*The War Against All Puerto Ricans, by Nelson A. Denis. Stupendous, eye-opening, and extremely well-written. Reading it while in Puerto Rico and struggling to understand the messy relationship between the United States and Puerto Rico (and while attending church with the grandson of Pedro Albizu Campos, no less) made the book feel just that much more relevant. Highly recommend.

*Call the Midwives: A Memoir of Birth, Joy, and Hard Times, by Jennifer Worth. Entertaining, and surprisingly similar to (at least the beginning of) the TV series, but so poorly written.

*The Invention of Wings, by Sue Monk Kidd. Fun and engrossing. The storyline was unpredictable and low-key, and therefore unsensational, which I liked.

*Born a Crime: Stories from a South African Childhood, by Trevor Noah. Entertaining and eye-opening — he has lived such a wildly varied life. I’m considering buying it and making it required reading for the older kids.

*Gorilla and the Bird: A Memoir of Madness and a Mother’s Love, by Zack McDermott. Written by a lawyer with bipolar, this books makes for an interesting connection between mental illness and the prison system. Also, the vivid writing helped me to understand not just what bipolar is, but how it feels.

*Look Me in the Eye: My Life With Asperger’s, by John Elder Robison. Great story-telling. Insightful. I made it required reading for the older kids. (Warning: it may inspire certain readers to blow things up.)

*A Lesson Before Dying, by Ernest J. Gaines. I didn’t much like the main character, and the flow felt stilted, but the ending was super powerful.

*A Girl’s Guide to Missiles: Growing Up in America’s Secret Desert, by Karen Piper. A personal, informative account of the war-making machine, but as a story goes: meh.

*Speaking with Strangers, by Mary Cantwell. Beautiful, fluid writing, but I did not “get” her at all.

*The L-Shaped Room, by Lynne Reid Banks (the abridged version, because that’s what my mother had lying around the house). Interesting.

*The Power, by Naomi Alderman. Pros: Intriguing concept and good writing. Cons: Weak plot, underdeveloped characters, repetitive, and lacking humanity and nuance.

*The Hate U Give, by Angie Thomas. Insightful, multi-layered, and relevant. After reading it, I bought a copy so the older children could read it. The girls both loved it.

*Where the Crawdads Sing, by Delia Owens. Super fantastic. Incredible. Exquisite. Delicious. Felt a little Barbara Kingsolver-esque. My husband and I fought over it who got to read it and when (I started it first, so I got dibs.) I inhaled the entire last section, came up gasping for breath, and then was so worked up (in a good way) that I had trouble sleeping.

Currently, I’m reading four books: Becoming (having trouble getting into it), Salt, Fat Acid, Heat (ordered it!), A Gentleman in Moscow (I keep having to take it back to the library and then get it out again), and The Wife (a whippy-fast page turner).

Now, your turn! What good books have you discovered in 2018?

This same time, years previous: balsamic-glazed roasted butternut squash and brussel sprouts, sex for all creation, old-fashioned sour cream cake donuts, the quotidian (12.22.14), the quotidian (12.23.13), bacon-jalapeno cheeseball, marshmallows.

Tuesday, my mother turned 70.

First thing in the morning (well, first thing after I’d baked two sausage-egg casseroles and a pan of sweet rolls and warmed two other pans of sweet rolls and assembled a fruit salad), my brother’s family and our family caravanned over to my parents’ place. We quietly walked into the house, our arms loaded with food. Mom was sitting on the sofa, holding the Pittsburgh brother’s new baby (their family had arrived at my parents’ place the night before), completely absorbed. Not until almost all of us were standing in the kitchen, staring at her, did she even glance up and register that we were there — surprise!

My poor father had been trying to hold her off in the kitchen — he’d even went so far as to mix up a batch of pancake batter and heat up the skillet — so we cleared away the fake breakfast, set our stuff up, and tucked in.

After breakfast, we gave her cards and gifts…

And then we hung out for a bit, fighting over who got to hold the baby and visiting.

Mom had to leave then, to go teach her class for refugees, so we all stayed behind to rehearse the music for the evening event … that she didn’t know about.

A few days before, I’d invited her and Dad over for a birthday supper, said my Pittsburgh brother and his wife were welcome to join if they wanted. The evening event wasn’t a big party or anything — just all of us again, with the addition of my mom’s sister, and lots of good food. Maybe she sort of figured it out ahead of time? I’ll have to ask her. (I haven’t talked to her since Tuesday. Probably she’s still recuperating.)

So mid-afternoon my aunt arrived at our house. My brothers’ families showed up, too, and we prepped food and strung the kids’ homemade paper chains and lit candles.

Supper was shaping up to be quite a feast. Days earlier, my Pittsburgh brother and his wife had had a serrano ham, great hunks of Swiss raclette cheese, and a cheese melter delivered to our house. My other brother provided the roasted butternut squash and onions and boiled potatoes. My aunt brought the fresh fruit, olives, and pickles. I made a giant green salad, the bread, and roasted brussel sprouts. My younger daughter and her cousin made the cakes.

Mom and Dad arrived at supper time, much to the children’s giddy excitement (kids are such a hoot!), and then my aunt walked out of the bedroom where she’d been hiding (and did surprise my mother, I think), and then we plugged in the cheese melter and set about the serious business of eating.

After we’d stuffed ourselves sufficiently, we presented our songs — one song for each decade of her life: starting with a Bible School song and ending with We Are The World in honor of her refugee work.

Then the cakes, which were sort of complicated. The plan was to trick her with the first cake, a “fake” one that’d she’d ooh and ahh over and then we’d be like, Ha! It’s a box cake!, but what with the singing and all the candles, juggling secrets, lies, and two cakes were way too complicated. So the girls presented her with her “fake” cake and we sang and yelled at her to cut it and take a bite because, unbeknownst to my mother, my aunt was in the back room trying not to burn the house down with the real cake (also made by the girls) that she’d crowned with 70 honest-to-goodness candles. So my mom took one bite of the fake cake, my brother did a key shift on his guitar, and we sang happy birthday a couple more times while my aunt carried out the flaming cake, and then I told the girls to explain the cakes when what I meant to say was explain the second cake but too late and oh well. The seventy candles were massively impressive, the real cake was a little boring, and the fake cake got devoured, ha!

Then, just when all the hubbub was dying down, my aunt ordered my mother into the bathroom where she dressed her up a slinky black dress, heels, sunglasses, and a wig.

The kids dressed up in whatever they could find, and my older son set up the polaroid camera that my sister-in-law had brought for a photo shoot.

To quote from my older son’s birthday card to my mother:


Happy 70th Birthday, Grandmommy.
Soon you will be old!

The end!

This same time, years previous: ludicrous mashed potatoes, 2016 book list, the quotidian (12.21.15), on my to-do list, how to have a dunging-out date, toasty oatmeal muffins.